eh, that's it

well, I guess I should write in here. it's definitely been a few days.

I kept putting it off, because...I don't know why. I just did.

I graduated from high school on june 16th. woop woop. the girls had to wear the ugliest yellow, that was bullshit. I didn't care and I wasn't excited like everyone else was. I just wanted to go home and pass out. we had family over, it was nice to see everyone. people made the biggest deal about graduating...it's high school, it really wasn't that hard. you should graduate high school, it's not a huge accomplishment, you know.

grad night turned out to be really fun. ours was on a yacht, ha. I think it was in newport, not sure. they boarded all the kids up and shipped it off, and we were out in the water for a good five hours. there was a dance floor, food, blackjack tables. it was hilarious. I had smoked before, of course. and before my friend offered me one of his beers. I couldn't turn that down. then on the boat, my friend offers me a pill. The last time I took that shit was two years ago, so I thought, why not. it was definitely intense. I don't think I've ever danced like that. ha. I felt ridiculous. I puked once, thanks to the motion sickness of the yacht. but other than that, it was a great time. and I'm pleased with how grad night went. dancing and hanging out with good friends, some since preschool. it made me realize how sad it all was.

since summer has begun, I haven't really done anything productive. I finally registered for college. coooooooolbeans.

I went to disneyland with ashley the other day. after grad night, I wanted to try rolling again. so we did, and that was ridiculous. disneyland is truly a beautiful place. the people there..not so much. but by the time we got home, I couldn't sleep. I didn't sleep for a whole day. and any sleep after that only lasted one-two hours. I couldn't throw up, I couldn't do anything. it was the worst comedown ever. and after that, I don't want to try ecstasy again. I've had my share of experiences, and I don't want to do it again.

I had bought a ticket for edc for saturday only, just cause my friends were going and I wanted to join them. but after the other night, I sold my ticket immediately. I'm over drugs for a while. no thank you.

I just need my weed, that's all.

so far, it's been hot. I've been lazy. I've been smoking. I've been sleeping. I've been lonely.

I hope I find some sort of interest this summer. I don't like this same ol' routine.

I'm so lazy right now.